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i’m red.
i’m cement shoes, the seaside.
i’m dirty; a matchstick or a dildo,
the thrum of a hammerheart, a stolen tv.
give me miles in the mojave desert
for i’m the jut of my hips and little else.
but worth speculation is the itch in my eyes,
the dead cats in the freezer,
bulletholes and pores through which whole lives have spoken.
and i’m not scars, but from down here in the hole
i can tell you i’m acclimated with drowning.
and i’m not bodies, most definitely not my own
which i know for sure belongs to anyone else.
so throw me a bone, throw me a pity party,
but if you tell me you’re sorry your ass is grass.
put me on a bender, peel my fingernails
with a potato skinner. suck out the insides.
string me up by the nipples of my soul
down by the hudson river where an old friend drowned.
i no longer live by that river. things are not as they were.
they gave me peace of mind, and sutured my fins,
and left me to the land. i left the land
to cement shoes and the seaside.
and though i may have left with no goodbyes,
i left with no regrets.
and though i may have left the water running,
i left with my lungs intact.
it’s a far cry, but i know
you hear me: i’m the one
who will not come home.
i’m cement shoes, the seaside.
i’m dirty; a matchstick or a dildo,
the thrum of a hammerheart, a stolen tv.
give me miles in the mojave desert
for i’m the jut of my hips and little else.
but worth speculation is the itch in my eyes,
the dead cats in the freezer,
bulletholes and pores through which whole lives have spoken.
and i’m not scars, but from down here in the hole
i can tell you i’m acclimated with drowning.
and i’m not bodies, most definitely not my own
which i know for sure belongs to anyone else.
so throw me a bone, throw me a pity party,
but if you tell me you’re sorry your ass is grass.
put me on a bender, peel my fingernails
with a potato skinner. suck out the insides.
string me up by the nipples of my soul
down by the hudson river where an old friend drowned.
i no longer live by that river. things are not as they were.
they gave me peace of mind, and sutured my fins,
and left me to the land. i left the land
to cement shoes and the seaside.
and though i may have left with no goodbyes,
i left with no regrets.
and though i may have left the water running,
i left with my lungs intact.
it’s a far cry, but i know
you hear me: i’m the one
who will not come home.
Literature
Thirty Three Percent
"What are you doing?"
"I think
I finally figured out percentages."
"We learnt those in the third grade."
"Yeah, but we always complained that we'd never use them in real life."
"And you know how to use them in real life now?"
"Eighty four percent."
"What's that?"
"That's the percentage of how many basketball matches you lost to me when we were kids."
"That's not fair! You're taller than me!"
"Fifty two percent."
"Is that how much taller than me you are?"
"No. That's the percentage of times you speak out of turn and get into trouble for it."
"Very funny."
"Twenty three percent."
"Let me guess, that's how much I annoy you?"
Literature
One, two, three
My boyfriend watched, open mouthed
as I unscrewed the lid of your urn,
and ran my fingers through your ashes.
Your depression, your soul dust.
I felt an ocean rolling under my ribs
and an urge to cradle your urn,
rock you back and forth
like you did for me when I was young.
-
At the funeral, my uncle announced
that you hated religion.
But he left out the part
where you did believe in a God,
just that he was always punishing you.
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“There was nothing you could have done”
said the other uncle.
I think of all those spent wishes,
the birthday candles extinguished for gifts,
the meteor showers I wasted on love,
the prayers offered from
Literature
Inside
I watched my best friend die.
It wasn't in a hospital and it wasn't an accident on some road somewhere. There's a saying, and I guess it's also… funny… how you never know what's going on behind closed doors.
I guess you're probably thinking of suicide - overdose, hanging by the rope, or (god forbid) the knife, but... it's not that.
Because it's one thing to die and it's another to die. I believe you can exist without properly living.
What is a life? We are born into this world with no say on the matter, and yet the majority of us take for granted that tomorrow we will wake up to another morning, another routine, another day in
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