i keep my heart in my chest where it belongs; it's out of the way, for now.
so anyway, let me tell you; nothing lasts long in this place.
you knew that—you knew that and you came here anyway. but honestly, what did you expect to find? it's only me here you know, miles and miles of me, and you can't take much more from me than myself. and even then, you'll have to pay me back for lost time when this is all over and done (cash only, please).
just do your job and nothing else. make sure we catch it all on tape. make sure we see it in black and white. turn on the teleprompter, turn on the television ―watch out for sharp right turns and don't wear those damn low-cut shirts during the day just to make me squirm.
give me your kisses in writing to prove that you were here before you're gone—but don't sign your name on my body because it's my body—and please try not to leave a mess behind, because we both know i'm not the one who throws emotions and shit around.
take me to the special place across the way from you-know-where― we'll abandon ourselves, alive, alone, together, from the kisses and drugs and sunshine and graphic novels. we'll fuck up and make mistakes and tell stories and be sad and tired and clumsy and beautiful.
then in seventy-three minutes we'll leave without telling the sun our secrets, and you'll go one way and i'll go the other; into the window display village towards your home, down the yawning highway towards mine.
—and don't you ever even think of calling me because my number is a novelty and nothing more, and i probably gave you a fake one anyway but then again i don't really remember. and don't look me in the eyes until next thursday, until you've worked up the guts to stop fucking around with that kid you call Yachia.
but i think it'll be okay. just stay where you are for now, waiting for it all to come full circle for the umpteenth time. just waiting for the paper clips and missed birthday parties and invisible ink and torture and wire sculptures and absolute bliss in grass too high to see over (and for you to cure me of my fear of insects-bugs-dirt-dust-daytime and show me proof that dandelions aren't weeds) and— please, please, take me for a fool.
don't come over to my house and i won't come over to yours and don't ever mention my name to anyone but me and i'll sure as hell do the same for you. but on thursdays we'll stay after school and go to that place where we make our bodies into boxes.
and we'll waste all of the seventy-three minutes in the world away on our favorite cartoons from long before we were born, 'cause now . . . now, they're playing all the best shit on the tv in the sky, and it's all so wonderful that it's almost enough of a reason for us to stay where we are—i mean, it seems to me that we've been here from the very beginning.
Sta.sh
Angsty 
FUCKIN' A. FUCKIN' B, C, D.
i am made of sky grass, fireflies, skin bicycles and chocolate toothpaste.
even so, it is important to remember that fireflies are not in fact made of fire, and pickles are just hotdogs that got mad and turned into the incredible hulk.
music: つしまみれ, gorillaz, the books, マス オブザファーメンティングドレッグス, dresden dolls, ザゼンボーイズ, トドル, コルダス, company of thieves, サカナクション, yeah yeah yeahs, 少年ナイフ, the smiths, ボアダムス, metric, フジファブリック, man man, にせんねんもんだい, ラッドウインプス, ジン, land of talk, pj harvey, ナンバーガール, emily haines, スプキー、amanda palmer, يونليس بنت زارا, ゆらゆら帝国, lady lamb the beekeeper
movies: 愛のむきだし, 火垂るの墓, welcome to the dollhouse, 東京ゴッドファーザーズ, 千と千尋の神隠し, little miss sunshine, the artist, 嫌われ松子の一生, パプリカ, we need to talk about kevin, となりのトトロ, パレード, o brother where art thou, boys don't cry, 嫌われ松子の一生, melancholia, 快乐工厂, pina, 시, the edge of heaven, 박하사탕
books: 20世紀少年, a clockwork orange, 劇画漂流, 冒険少年, アクメツ, ありがとう, ベルセルク, ブリーチ, デスノート, elegance of the hedgehog, emily alone, ＮＨＫにようこそ！, 驟雨, everything is illuminated, ガンツ, 攻殻機動隊, blankets, 地獄少女, hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy, べっちんとまんだら, house on mango street, 人間失格, koko be good, 렛다이, loose women, 淡い青い点, ブッダ, human all too human, 薔薇販売人, lost at sea, ドラゴンヘッド, caramelo, habibi, nausea, 暗室, この世の終りへの旅, わたしを離さないで, 虹ヶ原ホログラフ, no exit, ワンピース, rubyfruit jungle, 砂時計, ショートカッツ, ソラニン, the bell jar, thus spoke zarathustra, 素晴らしい世界, women hollering creek, 三人の警官, 鞄の中身, パレポリ
personal quote: "nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love." ーCharlie Brown
awwwwwwwwww you like my stinky bird haiku 
